She’s up there somewhere..

I’ve recently had to deal with my Mums death after a long illness.

She had had dementia for 12 years and she slowy disappeared from us over about six years until she never recognised anyone, let alone be able to speak.

So for the last six years, she just wasn’t there, and was totally bedridden.

I had resolved to myself that she was literally already gone, and that when she physically died, it would be easy to deal with.

It wasn’t. It was like she had died all over again.

It’s sort of strange grieving for her again, because the only memories are very old ones.

I did a short eulogy at the funeral, and this in itself was quite hard because I struggled to find a happy memory to talk about.

You see, Mum suffered from post natal depression from when I was born, which was never treated (at least not successfully). The mother I knew was always sad and seemed to have the ability to suck positive energy out of everything, like one of those death eaters on a Harry Potter movie.

Mums sisters used to talk about her childhood and how happy she was, but this is before my time, and it’s like they were talking about a different person.

Growing up with Mum had a profound effect on me. I knew my family life wasn’t normal somehow, but I didn’t know what normal was, as Mum was always surrounded by sympathetic never-do-wells.

In short, I didn’t know what I didn’t know.

I did know that other kids at school just seemed to be better off and happier in general. It was like I had drawn the short straw somehow.

Once I left home, it took me years to work out that I needed to throw out almost everything I learnt from her and start afresh, least I end up in the same sad predicament she was. With self help books, I learned to be a lot more positive and see things differently.

I avoided people who ‘wanted to help’, because they often had their own agenda. To a large extent I stood on my own feet rather than trust anyone, often making mistakes through bad habits and not thinking.

I got better by thinking about everything logically and examining everything I did. I couldn’t just trust my natural instincts and run on ‘auto pilot’, because of all the wrong stuff I learnt growing up.

Thirty years on, the auto pilot is now pretty reliable (I think).

Through the years, I always saw Mum at Xmas. She always had that sad demeanor, and I often had left my brothers place with a happy young family to have dinner with her. I don’t think this was doing me any good, but I felt bound by family duty.

She’s gone now, and is finally free from her troubled life.

I’m not sure whether to be sad she’s gone, or happy that she’s finally free.

The Data says What?!

The stupidity continues dispite overwhelming evidence

Below is a post I’m sharing from Voices for Freedom

Shared from https://www.voicesforfreedom.co.nz/blog/post/data-says-what

May 20, 2022
How many times in the last 18 months have you heard the line spouted that the Covid vaccine lowers your chance of becoming unwell enough to be hospitalised? Or, that you’ll be less likely to catch the coof in the first place?
Before anyone has a conniption and feels compelled to yell MISINFORMATION!, let’s take a look at the Ministry of Health’s OWN data.
There is a running tally of 7 day averages being published by RNZ. It’s worth a visit. There you will find charts like this one.

This chart displays the percentages of people who have (or haven’t) been vaccinated and how many doses they’ve received.
It also shows the same breakdown for the case numbers by vax status and the hospitalisation rates as well.
We have been told since late 2020 that this product is 95% effective.

The actual trial results quickly morphed into something different that was then promoted by the media and our government officials at every opportunity – day and night on TV, radio, internet, newspapers, text messages, emails, phone calls, magazines, posters, billboards, flyers, and from medical professionals, scientists, politicians, so-called ‘experts’, influencers, and anyone with a ‘professional’ role or a mouth in their face. It was inescapable, feverish, and well past the threshold of obsessive.

We were told that:
❌️ The vaccines were safe and EFFECTIVE.
❌️ The vaccines would prevent sickness, hospitalisation, and death. (Remember that gem of a press conference, Jacinda, where you said “you won’t get sick and you won’t DIE”? We do).

https://odysee.com/Jacinda-Spinning:d548fb6f0c3439c34fafe042c9b84b1ceb7e5b7a?src=embed

❌️ The vaccines would protect those who got them as this was a ‘Pandemic of the Unvaccinated’ dont you know!
❌️ The unvaccinated would be a threat to the vulnerable and society as a whole; clogging hospitals and spreading disease… They needed to be silenced, shamed, and shunned.
Now, let’s look at the data. The facts. What actually happened.

Their OWN data shows that the vaccine-free make up 7% of the population, but only 2% of the new cases, and 6% hospitalisations. That ‘dangerous’ group is UNDER-REPRESENTED in both the case and hospitalisation stats. Awkward.
Moving on to the fully vaccinated crew. The twice-jabbed make up 26% of the population, 26% of the new cases, but 37% of the hospitalisations. They are OVER-REPRESENTED in one of the most serious categories – being hospitalised. They are, in fact, MORE LIKELY to land in the hospital than those without a jab. Uh oh.
Then there’s this graph.

It shows the rates of hospitalisation per 100,000 people in the population. In this data we can compare how many people from each of the groups (Under 12/Ineligible, Unvaccinated, Partially Vaccinated, Fully Vaccinated, and Boosted) ended up in hospital.
Again, it is clear from the data that the fully vaccinated are ahead of the race (and not in a good way) with 2.3 cases per 100,000 compared to 2 per 100,000 in the unvaccinated.
If the 95% effective claims were correct, the bars showing the fully vaxxed and boosted people should be near pancake-level; a small fraction of what they actually are – around 5% of the unvaccinated group.
But they’re not and you’re not being told about it.

Instead, we are still being bombarded with messaging to get shot up with more, and more, and more ineffective products.
Where is the mainstream media on this? It would appear they’re too busy shouting mis- and disinformation at anyone trying to sound the alarm and shine a light on the facts – just like they have the whole way along. Shame. On. Them.
What will these charts look like in the months to come as the narrow ‘immunity’ conferred by the vaccine wanes even further?
How much negative efficacy or increased risk will we see? When will the unintended consequences become so obvious that they’re no longer able to be swept under the rug?
All we can do is watch, wait, and share information like this in the hope to inform those still thinking that more is best.
Stand up. Speak out. Be on the right side of history.

REFERENCE: https://www.rnz.co.nz/news/in-depth/450874/covid-19-data-visualisations-nz-in-numbers

Gun Control vs. Self-Control

Two days ago, an 18-year-old murdered nineteen children and three adults in Texas – just ten days after another 18-year-old shot thirteen people, ten fatally, in Buffalo, NY. The New York shooter was a known racist, while the Texas shooter had no record of violence and no known ideological agenda. But the two shared one […]
Gun Control vs. Self-Control

an update on NZ’s Covid obsession

I’m only posting the link to the article below as part of a time capsule, as it shows very clearly how pointless the mandate thing was / is at this point of time, and how it’s become political and not about health.

As for me, I’m rather over the whole thing, and would rather concentrate on things that matter, like been a really good dad to my kids and giving them the best possible start in life.

At this point of time, NZ’s prime minister is in the USA desperately trying to be relevant somehow, if only someone actually important would talk to her.

The ‘orange’ they are referring to in the link below is the ‘traffic lt’ system which was thought to be for containing covid, but was actually designed to persecute the unvaccinated. (ref note 1)

https://thebfd.co.nz/2022/05/25/orange-for-the-win/

Note 1

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2022/jan/10/new-zealand-not-prepared-for-omicron-outbreak-expected-in-matter-of-weeks-experts-warn